Our TTC Journey

Monday, June 25, 2012

*6 weeks & U/S picture*

How far along: 6 weeks!
Total weight gain: 0.6 lbs
Stretch marks: Being overweight does that to you. Yes.
Sleep: I have been so exhausted. I welcome any sleep in any bed at any time. :)
Best moment this week: Seeing our little one on u/s for the first time! Absolutely the most wonderful thing I've ever seen! Heart beat was 127bpm!
Miss anything: Not feeling like my stomach is turning ALL DAY LONG. I guess I miss feeling normal. But I'd do this for as long as possible to have our little bundle of joy!
Movement: Too early!
Food cravings: Not yet.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Before meals I feel so hungry and sick at the same time. Then, after I eat, I feel okay for like 10 minutes until I feel sick again. This is a continual 24/7 feeling! I'll take it though! At least little baby is telling mommy he/she is growing!
Symptoms: Exhaustion, Nausea, brown spotting, gas, and frequent bowel movements.
Belly button: Innie
Weddings rings: ON!
Mood: On top of the biggest cloud 9 you've ever seen!
Looking forward to: Week 8! We have our second u/s with the RE.
Anything else?: My RE tested my progesterone today. It went from 26 to 19. He gave me Crinone suppositories to take every morning. How fun! I get to be in the progesterone gel club for the first time! I'm glad he is taking precautions. I really love this guy(My RE). :)



And without further adieu... our little peanut at exactly 6 weeks!

Sunday, June 24, 2012

ER visit

Ugh, yes, I'm the girl who freaks out because she is spotting early in pregnancy. Yesterday I was 5 weeks 5 days pregnant. I went to the restroom and wiped and saw pink/red blood. First thought, "No!!!!" Second thought, "To the ER I go!"

Needless to say I was very upset but tried to stay calm because I know that spotting in early pregnancy is not uncommon.

We went into the ER at 9:30pm last night. They took blood, did a pelvic exam, and an abdominal ultrasound. My Beta came back at 30,000 which kind of worried me at the time. It's a 134 doubling time... seems a little slow but I have to remind myself that once they get this high, the doubling time gets slowed down. I guess the average is about 96 hours at this point. I'm not TOO far off, at least. The abdominal ultrasound found one gestational sac. Nothing else was seen. I was excited to know that we have a pregnancy in the right place. But at the same time I thought we'd see at least a yolk sac. I'm chalking it up to being abdominal and not trans-vaginal.

Tomorrow is my next appointment/ultrasound with my RE. He has Mr. Wandy, so I am praying so hard we at least get something besides the gestational sac.

I'm spotting brown now. So that makes me feel a little better. Still worried about my beta, though. What do you think??

Thursday, June 21, 2012

My new weigh in list for pregnancy!

Pregnancy Weight Week by Week!

To make sure I don't let myself go, I've decided to keep track of my pregnancy weight week by week. I really don't want to gain a million lbs by the time I'm 9 months pregnant!

Week 1: 171.2
Week 2: 169.2
Week 3: 169.2
Week 4: 170
Week 5: 170.2

Total pregnancy gain*:  -1 lbs


Up from last week, but down over all. As long as I keep watching what I'm eating I think I will be good to go!


3 more days until the ultrasound!!!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Beta #2 at 21dpo

My beta at 21dpo was over 15,000 -insert worried look here-

The doubling time is 40.6 hours. I am thrilled about this but the really high number makes me worry about a molar or possible twins. I'm just freaking out a tad. I guess we will find out on the 25th. I'm so nervous but really super excited.

Scott has been taunting me with the "What if we're having twins?" question. He asks me several times a day. He says he WANTS twins. I say I want a healthy baby. Boy oh boy, I am on edge with this whole twin thing. I'm just trying to get through each day. 5 weeks 2 days today. Man, I wish these next 4 days would fly by....

I have been getting super duper bloated at night time. It's annoying. I just want to let my belly hang out. It looks rather gross. I feel fat. I feel uncomfortable. And being this early, I'm beginning to think that I'm going to complain a whole lot more during the length of this pregnancy. I never thought of myself as a complainer, but I am so happy to have all these symptoms nonetheless. It's a strange situation. Oh, and gas, the lovely gas. Every night I have a party in my pants. DH thinks it's funny. I think I'm just a freak. haha

Monday, June 18, 2012

*5 weeks*

How far along: 5 weeks!
Total weight gain: 0.6 lbs
Stretch marks: Being overweight does that to you. Yes.
Sleep: Been getting lots and lots of rest!
Best moment this week: Having a very, very high beta!
Miss anything: Nothing yet!
Movement: Too early!
Food cravings: Not yet.
Anything making you queasy or sick: We went to Santa Fe and I ate a salad and halfway through I felt like I was going to throw up. Glad I didn't.
Symptoms: Exhaustion, Insomnia, Nausea, some cramps, gas, and frequent bowel movements, off and on constipation.
Belly button: Innie
Weddings rings: ON!
Mood: Anxious for our U/S next Monday!
Looking forward to: A growing bump in the future. I can't believe we're 5 weeks today! :)

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Weekly Weigh In

Week one: 184.0
Week two: 180.6
Week three: 179.6(AF week)
Week four: 178.2
Week five: 179.0 (Provera week)
Week six: 180.0 (AF week)
Week seven: 179.0 (Follistim week)
Week eight: didn't track (Follistim week)
Week nine: didn't track
Week ten: 177.4 (first myfitnesspal week)
Week eleven: 177.4 (AF week)
Week twelve: 174.2
Week thirteen: 175.2
Week fourteen: 173.6
Week fifteen: 174.0
Week sixteen: 173.4 (AF week)
Week seventeen: 172.4
Week eighteen: 171.6 (Provera week)
Week ninteen: 172.6 (Provera/AF week)
Week twenty: 170.6
Week twenty-one: 169.6
Week twenty-two: 171.2
Week twenty-three: 169.2
Week twenty-four: 169.2
Week twenty-five: 170

Total lost: 14 lbs

 I've been so starving. I think this is why I gained. ;x I need to figure out a routine for when my stomach is growling at me!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

The Green Overachieving Nugget!

This nickname came from my friend who went with my to my beta appointment. While we were waiting in the waiting room, she explained to me how God has it planned for us to have our children. All of our eggs are "lined up" in a "straight line." Most are red and some are green. Red ones are the ones that will never become our children. Green ones will. So we decided that my eggie was a green one and God decided it was time to come into this world! So that is where we got the "green" part of little love bug's nickname. "Nugget" is a word that my friend has been saying quite often lately. So I said ohhh, it's going to be my lucky "Green Nugget" we also talked about it hopefully being an overachiever! Well, after the beta results, that is definitely one true fact. We have out Green Overachieving Nugget. :) I just wish my husband were able to be there with me to hear the beta results and such. But duty calls and he had to be away for work.
 
I just want to say that I am so blessed to make it to 16dpo with a great beta number and p4 number. This post is going to just be for my symptom records, so I can look back and remember how it feels to be in this step of my pregnancy.

Symptoms:
  • Every night I have a ton of nausea. After I eat dinner it gets to the point where my stomach is turning every way possible and I feel like whatever I ate is pretty much in my throat. I'm not complaining. I like having this symptom because I know something must be going on down there. :) 
  • My breasts have been getting a little tender. I was wondering when this would happen. I welcome all breast tenderness!
  • My lack of libido. I don't even want to think about having sex. In the evenings when I'm nauseous I am sure it will make for an unpleasant experience. I just hope my husband doesn't get annoyed by the fact that my va-jay-jay wants nothing to do with his dip stick. I'm also part terrified that something horrible will happen...
I am so blessed by God. THANK YOU LORD FOR THIS MIRACLE!  

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

15dpo beta update!

1,254!!!!!


Yes, you heard that right. :)  I couldn't be more happier!

P4 level is at 25! Perfect range. 

Ultrasound on the 25th! I am still in shock and trying to pinch myself to wake up from this amazing deam!!!

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Final Progression!






I am really enjoying watching these sticks get darker. I was worried at first that they were getting dark too fast. But now that several people have told me that quite a few people get dark tests early, I feel better. Thank you Lord for this beautiful gift of life!!!!

I have tons of symptoms to report.

Symptoms:

  •  Last night I had really horrible nausea to the point where I couldn't sleep because any moment I felt like I was going to puke. I went to Walgreens to pick up some Unisom (a friend requested I take it). I swallowed that baby and within 45 minutes I was out like a lamp and not feeling sick. Yay! Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy for that symptom. It reassures me.
  • Last night I felt like I had to poop and was having quite a few cramps. I'm writing that up to gas pains. I never ended up pooping but I did fart quite a bit before I went to sleep and since I've been awake this morning I've been farting non-stop. Sexy, huh? haha
This Unisom is making me very sleepy even though I feel like I slept so amazingly last night. And today I haven't really had any issues besides having to fart every 2 seconds. LOL  I can't stress it enough how grateful to God that I am. He is so amazing!!!!!

Saturday, June 9, 2012

8-12dpo progression!



I still can't wrap it around my head that I am pregnant. And the fact that I'm beating the control line at 12dpo is mind blowing to me. Truly. Insane. I never ever thought this would happen. It's like I went from one extreme to another. Infertility to super amazing (obviously) rising hCG. My beta is on Tuesday (hopefully). 3 more days of waiting!


Symptoms:
  • Last night I had my first round of toilet hugging. Note: A bowl of Lucky Charms right before bed is not a fab idea. It did not sit well with me. 
  • Insomnia... I'm guessing this it due to being anxious and nervous. I can't sleep because my mind is racing at the fact that anything could happen at this point (any point, really).
  • Still waking up feeling like I could eat a whole cow by myself.
  • Daily morning very soft bowel movements (not normal for me). This is really strange to me. Normally I am not regular like this. It's usually sporadic and I am not able to time when I'll probably have to go.
  • Frequent urination. Yep, going to the bathroom probably twice the amount as I normally would. The bathroom is like my new best friend? Yeah, not really. lol
Still praising the lord for the miracle He has given my husband and I. I am still in shock and I might be in denial for a while. I just pray I don't keep puking. Ehh, could totaly deal WITHOUT that but if that's what God has in store for me to get our take home baby, I'm all for it! Let the puking continue, please. :)

Friday, June 8, 2012

11dpo PM update & symptoms...


I'm loving my tests. Although I get super nervous right before I dip every one of them. I feel like one of these times I'm going to get a super duper light line and then freak out. Freaking out is not fun in my book. I try my hardest to remind myself that hCG doesn't rise every 2 hours. LOL And my tests are looking pretty darn good as the days go by. A fellow TTCer told me "You're going to break that line before other women even start testing!" I thought that was pretty funny. Some friends are saying "twins" and I think there is only one in there, snuggling deep. :) I am still trying to wrap this around my head that I am indeed pregnant. I've never had this dark of tests. I beat my tests with my chemical at 9dpo(Yeah, crazy, I know!). I just keep praying to God that he lets us keep this little nugget growing inside me. I also thank God for giving us this miracle. I have so many emotions running through my head right now. The main one is fear. But, again, I'm trying to depend on God and all we can do right now is wait. Whatever He has in store for us, we can handle. We will overcome each and every obstacle He delivers because we have before. I am just blessed to know we conceived naturally. That is a miracle in itself.

Symptoms:
  • EXHAUSTION! I've been wanting to go to sleep at 5pm for the last few days. Today I almost fell asleep in the car on the way to dinner. Yeah, I was that tired. I also had a very long nap today....so I shouldn't be.
  • HEADACHE. ALL. DAY. LONG. I finally gave in a took one regular strength Tylenol. Thank God it eased up a little.
  • STARVATION. I felt so queezy on the way to dinner I was so hungry but I also felt like I wanted to puke at the same time. Ugh! Once I ate, I felt a little better. The feeling of being sick stayed for about 20-30 minutes after I ate.

I will probably be updating every now and then. I want to be able to look back at my symptoms in the future and to embrace every second of this miracle pregnancy. I am trying to keep my guard, though. Keep praying for me!

8-11 dpo progression! :)

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Sooo thrilled and thankful for this miracle!!!!

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Weigh In and 10dpo progression :)

Week one: 184.0
Week two: 180.6
Week three: 179.6(AF week)
Week four: 178.2
Week five: 179.0 (Provera week)
Week six: 180.0 (AF week)
Week seven: 179.0 (Follistim week)
Week eight: didn't track (Follistim week)
Week nine: didn't track
Week ten: 177.4 (first myfitnesspal week)
Week eleven: 177.4 (AF week)
Week twelve: 174.2
Week thirteen: 175.2
Week fourteen: 173.6
Week fifteen: 174.0
Week sixteen: 173.4 (AF week)
Week seventeen: 172.4
Week eighteen: 171.6 (Provera week)
Week ninteen: 172.6 (Provera/AF week)
Week twenty: 170.6
Week twenty-one: 169.6
Week twenty-two: 171.2
Week twenty-three: 169.2
Week twenty-four: 169.2

Total lost: 14.8 lbs


Yay for not gaining! :) I've been trying REALLY hard not to go over my calories.

I've been super duper hungry all day long and very gassy. Interestingly enough, I haven't had any breast tenderness. They feel perfectly fine! I kind of wish there were something going on with them. My tests are getting super dark - to the point where I think I will break an FRER in a few days. Insane, isn't it? I'm just trying to really keep myself guarded and not get too excited. I pray this is a sticky bean. I'm getting a beta done on Tuesday, 15dpo. I could go in and do it with my PCM if I wanted to by with my tests right now, I know I have high numbers. Especially for 10 dpo....

I've been searching the web for pictures of positive tests at 9-10 dpo. Mine are super dark compared to all of the ones I have seen. It almost seems insane to me that they are this dark. My IC's are getting really dark, too. Much darker than the ones did with my chemical.

I am so thrilled to be experiencing this right now. I still can't believe my husband and I made a baby without IUI. I never in my life thought that it would happen naturally. God really worked his magic on us. I prayed and prayed for this child. I prayed for the opportunity to be a mother and I am so grateful. Thank you God!!!!!!! Glory to Him in the HIGHEST!!!!

Here's my progression....
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Wednesday, June 6, 2012

9DPO DIGITAL!

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PRAISE THE GOOD LORD! GLORY IS ALL TO GOD!!!!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

8dpo BFP!!!!!!!!

With a 20-30 minute hold, same pee for all sticks.... I am shocked and speechless. Thank you LORD!!!!!!! And a NATURAL CYCLE at that???? I am so blessed!!!!!!!

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Sunday, June 3, 2012

6dpo

Yes. That's right. SIX dpo. This wait is killing me. I really want to test at 9dpo, but I think I might start testing the night of 8dpo. I have some 10 miu tests from earlypregnancytests.com that I have never used before so I want to see if I'll get something on those. No symptoms really besides this incredible hungry feeling I had last night and I am SUPER GASSY... Don't really like my temps because they seem a bit low.

I need to try to figure out what I'm going to do to keep me busy on Monday and Tuesday.... they are going to snail by. I will update with pictures of my sticks when time comes! Wish me a speedy next 48 hours!!!