Our TTC Journey

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

This cycle is doomed.

Well, no sex for us tonight. Hubby is too tired. Tonight is prime.... I'm pissed, crying, and frustrated. Looks like just another bust cycle. :( Haven't cried like this in a long time.

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  1. Sorry to hear this :( I know that feeling too. It wasn't till I laid down the law with my husband and explained to him that it is Necessary sometimes and not an option, that he understood. This was last year when we were still actively trying naturally.

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    1. Thanks for the comment, Lori. He has been a good sport, most of the time. He really does care. And I think sometimes I just need to be respectful of him. It's easy for us women to BD and get it over with than it is for a man. He was tired. I get it. But at the same time, he needs to realize that these days are PRIME and there's no saying "no, I'm too tired." I think maybe I should just straight out jump him on timed intercourse cycles. Then maybe he wont fall asleep? But then sometimes I just don't feel like doing it so I need some help getting in the mood. It's like a two way street. I just feel like I'm doing everything I can to succeed and then the blow of last night and him saying no just pushed me over the edge. Thankfully, he left me a note this morning for me to see after work that said, "When I get home, I want you in bed naked." LOL! Sorry, TMI, he was TRYING to make up for it. I think it's a little too late, but I guess we will find out in about 12 days.

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  2. So sorry to hear this. AC is super rough on your sex life. It appears like your going to have to have the chat .... explaining to him that you have done your part in all this ... you have had your injections, blood work and ultrasounds; which means that he has to be committed to his part EVERY cycle with no excuses. When you BOTH commit to the AC journey that you means that you BOTH have to do your part each cycle without fail! Im so sorry!!

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    1. Thank you for replying. We HAVE had this chat before. He usually is a pretty good sport about it. He knows how I feel. Last night was just rough and I think it all had to do with how these last 2 months have gone. It just finally broke down about how I feel, instead of pretending like everything was fine. Him saying no to sex was my breaking point and it all came out. I have never cried as much as I did last night over TTC. I had puffy eyes when I went to work this morning. The students probably thought I was on some super drugs or something. Actually, I don't think I ever cried myself to sleep before last night. I am just so annoyed by how things have been going these past 4-5 months. It went from PREGNANT to NOT PREGNANT to "OH YOU'RE A FREAK OF NATURE." I don't know how you've gotten as far as you have in your journey. I am just really exhausted of pretending like I am fine about all of this. It isn't fine. It's not right. It's not fair. I'm just really trying to rely on God right now. Thanks for your support.

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